Hey, it is me once more!
It is clear to me as day that in a massive way I have abandoned my actual weblog and I wanted to apologize for that. It is so wild how issues in the business of blogging have changed considerably because I 1st began this journey five years ago. That is proper, its been five freakin years man! Can you think it? So surreal and wild to me.
It employed to be that in order to contact your self a “Travel Blogger” you had to truly have a weblog and almost everything else came secondary to it AKA social media, but as life and this globe adjustments, this business has changed a lot and now a “Travel Blogger” suggests you are an Instagrammer and in the previous year or a lot more Facebook has faded out into an all advertisement globe and a video feed that individuals have began to turn away from it as effectively.
On the other hand, I am right here to be present and give my weblog the consideration it deserves and bring it back to life. I am committed to performing that this year. In the final couple of years my #1 priority has been Instagram…clearly & YouTube and now that I have Lastly gotten to 100k followers on Instagram (YAY! Huge milestone) and my YouTube channel has reached more than a single million views, it is blogging time!
And with that, I’ll attempt to give you a mini life update of what has occurred in the final year and a half, what lead me right here, exactly where I am now and what’s to come from me.
Recap of 2018, Struggles and Confusion About Life
2018 was a single of the finest and worst years of my life.
The 1st half of the year began off awesome, dreamy, complete of dreams coming to life and a lot more than I could have ever asked for! Life was a dream. (*Star Star* emoji)
Towards the finish of June, issues took an unexpected turn in a lot more methods than a single, my site got hacked and it seemed that all my challenging function of years was just thrown to the trash. Soon after about a month I was in a position to save my site but targeted traffic dropped considerably and I was so upset about it and virtually more than blogging altogether.
To prime it all off, my buddies from Higher On Life (Ryker, Alexey & Mindy) passed away in a tragic accident that I’m nonetheless shocked more than and almost certainly will never ever get more than for the rest of my life. It impacted me in methods that I couldn’t even start to clarify or inform you and I feel at this point I have spoken about it endlessly all more than my social media platforms but nonetheless, the discomfort is actual AF and there is virtually not a day that goes by that I do not feel about them. <3 (enjoy you guys to pieces <3 Ryker & Alexey)
Soon after the death of my buddies, the hacking of my site, several a lot more series of unfortunate events, I was fully lost. I didn’t know who I was, what I’ve turn out to be, what I wanted my mission to be about any longer. I was receiving so frustrated with Instagram and social media as a entire. I kept comparing myself to other individuals, questioning why they kept receiving a lot more followers and likes and I wasn’t, when I knew they weren’t becoming genuine to actual life and so several of them have been masking away at a fake identity on line and possessing other individuals assistance them and cheating their way to the prime and however other individuals kept obtaining their fake illusion life and I felt like I was actual all along and no know cared.
I guess you can say death brings upon so several newfound realizations we forgot about inside ourselves and our core morals, values and beliefs.
I was at a really fragile and breaking point in my profession and life. I truly believed of quitting blogging for the 1st time in my life and was just so more than almost everything. I was emotionally, mentally and physically exhausted with life and the grin of surviving this ever-altering globe of what seemed like unattainable hopeless dreams.
I believed that by going to Israel and hanging out with my family members and buddies and traveling a bit, life would get far better but you know what they say, “you can not run away from your difficulties, they will generally chase you again” and so they did…Israel was in a way a comprehensive disaster for the most portion.
I didn’t get a likelihood to do almost everything I wanted to do, see absolutely everyone I wanted to see mainly because I was attempting to balance life, operating, maintaining up and spending time with buddies and family members. Meanwhile understanding to master Lightroom, which produced me shed my thoughts each and every single day for weeks on finish.
On the other hand, I was so excited to lastly release my Lightroom Presets Filters in February and if you haven’t verify them out however, it is time you do 😉 (My Lightroom Presets). I worked on them endlessly in the final six months and I’ve so proud of what they turned out! I committed my heart and soul into building them for you guys!
(Ahead of and Soon after, under, utilizing My Lightroom Presets which will assistance you bring your photographs to life!)
When I got back to LA (house), I feel I had a nervous breakdown…well I truly feel that also took location on my trip as I cried my eyes out 1-two days ahead of my trip back house. I had so a lot regrets about how my trip had turned out. How I was lacking time and balance in my life. But I definitely had a different a single breakdown when I got back and to prove it, even my physique was rejecting all that I had gone by way of by receiving sick for three weeks.
I was insanely overwhelmed, I stopped posting on social media for a month or a lot more and felt like I require a comprehensive life makeover — I Need to have Alter! A Total Life Makeover! (study that if you haven’t already…I essentially lost my shit). On the other hand, I do think that with distraction comes rebuilding. Occasionally we just have to tear our whole life upside down to locate the root of our difficulties and locate a new which means and objective to our existence.
I decided I wouldn’t travel once more till I figured some issues on my personal. I necessary a new path, I necessary to dig deep and appear at the globe about me and see what was definitely going on with me and my soul, only then can I move forward and locate the answers I was searching for — by way of healing my life day-to-day and completely.
I began this soul looking journey once more at the finish of December — a journey I have been on several occasions in my life but generally locating new and inspiring methods to guide me — generally looking, yearning for endless meanings and answers. I decided to even seek out physics to locate answers (YouTube video quickly), I watched YouTube videos about soulful issues to far better fully grasp me, my life and what I wanted for 2019.
New Years – New Year – New Me
As the New Year rolled in, I didn’t go out and celebration, I wanted to locate answers on that evening, I wanted to create ambitions for what I wanted 2019 to appear like but I guess it wasn’t my time…I think that almost everything in life has its proper timing and as challenging as I search absolutely nothing was coming to me, so I took it for what it was…not my timing however to get all the answers that are burning at my core.
I didn’t want to set intention and ambitions just for the sake of New Years, as perfect as it may perhaps have been. I wanted them to be clear and to come out of a pure, fantastic and soulful location complete of abundance but how could I do that when I felt like my life was lacking so a lot.
No matter if it was truth or not, it was at the time, my existing truth and absolutely nothing could be made till I realized what was definitely accurate.
On the other hand, I did make a dramatic transform in my life and removed a couple of individuals who I believed have been toxic in my life.
As a lot as I loved them I came to recognize that a lot more poor and hurt have been coming from them then fantastic and enjoy. It was a challenging and huge selection to make but the moment I cleared out that space, I felt light, I felt like I now had space for new — actually like a challenging drive on a computer system, the moment I hit delete, my soul and life’s challenging drive was operating rapidly and far better mainly because it had a lot more space — a lot more enjoy to give to these who deserved it. This approach awakened a new portion of me. It cleansed my soul in a huge way.
Occasionally in order to locate peace, you have to be prepared to shed connection of individuals, areas and issues that make all the noise in your life.
I was determined to be unstoppable in this approach of locating me once more and my objective.
New Beginnings – What’s To Come For Vanilla Sky Dreaming
Points began to definitely get started creating sense for me at the starting of February and because then a lot of changed and I can not wait to share with you exactly where this newly located pathway has guided me to.
I have shared a massive portion of me, my struggles, my journey and thoughts on Instagram a lot more than any other location by way of my photography and captions I commit writing for virtually an hour each and every morning but I want to dive deeper into this globe with you.
In the final five months, I’ve been guided towards so several life-altering issues. I’ve gone way deep into my spiritual self. I wouldn’t say a lot more than ever (effectively possibly type of), but undoubtedly a single of my deepest and most profound journeys of my life. I have discovered so a lot about myself, my life, humans, our believed processes, power, limiting beliefs and so a lot a lot more.
I’ve toyed about and educated myself on tarot cards, crystals, moon cycles and so a lot a lot more. I’ve discovered so a lot by reading poetry, listening to podcasts, watching YouTube videos & documentaries and reading endless articles. I’ve tuned in and paid a lot more consideration to the indicators the universe has been sending my way and wildly sufficient when you do that, wildly, superb issues get started to occur. Your entire globe about you adjustments, considerably, in a surreal and profound way.
I’ve been manifesting issues I couldn’t even clarify to the “natural person” mainly because their existence is beyond unrealistic in the “normal” sensible globe. Scenarios that have actually saved my life a couple of occasions in the final couple of months just by tuning into the messages I’ve received from G*d/universe. I’ve gotten insane insides by way of visual imagery and dreams of issues ahead of they truly occurred and it is been a wild ride…to say the least.
I get and know that this globe is not for absolutely everyone — this supernatural spiritual globe. On the other hand, as human beings we are all in search of, looking and searching for answers to far better our lives, our circumstance and the globe about us, or at least my type of individuals and me.
No matter if you think in G*d or you do not, absolutely everyone believes in some thing, and there is some thing that connects all of us right here on earth. There is a science to it all each spirituality, psychologically and scientifically. We all want a lot more, far better, larger and greatness and I want to bring that into your lives. That has generally been my mission, to inspire you to reside out your wildest dreams.
I employed to feel that seeing is performing and believing. Like if individuals saw me living out my dreams and fantasies they would go out there and seek newfound worlds and make their dreams come accurate. What I never ever dove into is how I do what I do, how I know to go right here and not there, what I’ve discovered in my travels and life journeys that have changed and shaped me to the lady I am nowadays. I want to show you the how and inform you stories of areas that have changed me and my life forever. The individuals I’ve met along my wild journey referred to as life that have moved me to tears and laughter, the individuals who have engraved their name across my heart and soul. I want to show you how to reside your finest life ever mainly because I feel you deserve it and not just by seeing a person else do it but also by telling you what drives them, what tends to make them tick.
I am so excited to bring my new globe and some of which has generally been there but hidden away out of worry of judgment and self-doubt. But I think the time is now!
I enjoy you guys!
Keep tuned for what’s to come for me, you and the Vanilla Sky Dreaming globe!
Hofit Kim Cohen