Aloha loyal buddies and readers of The Sweetest Way!
On this beautiful morning, I’m writing from Maui, Hawaii, my new house sweet house.
Are not we all.
It has been a wild year, and that is placing it delicately. In reality, let’s just get in touch with a spade a spade: 2018 fucked. me. up.
It would be futile to attempt and clarify just how earth-shattering 2018 was for me, at least in a single weblog post, but suffice it to say that I am NOT the similar Leah you made use of to know.
In a superior way even though. Guarantee.
And whilst I completely anticipated to get in touch with Maui house sooner or later, I couldn’t have predicted the how or the when of it all. In that sense, I just sort of followed my gut, generating this selection mainly because I knew it was proper for me.
Placing all that self-adore stuff I’m often speaking about into practice for as soon as.
I’d wanted to start out a new life right here ever considering the fact that my stop by back in October of 2017. In reality, that was the very first time I’d felt such a powerful sense of being aware of when it came to exactly where I wanted to place down roots. It shook me to my core.
Moving to Maui was all I could feel about soon after that.
As I’ve talked about quite a few occasions just before, I didn’t really feel at house, nicely, anyplace all through my travels. I guess you could say I was waiting for that spot that just spoke to me in a way no other spot had–the spot that lastly named me house.
And on September 30th, 2018, I stepped off that 1-way flight from Seattle into the balmy Hawaiian air and promptly burst into tears.
This was it.
Maui had named me house.
It nonetheless tends to make me tear up when I feel about that moment.
And it is possibly also apparent by now, but I’ll just state this is plain terms as nicely: I moved to Maui by myself, and I am no longer engaged.
That is possibly the 1 portion of the story exactly where I will not be going into excellent detail, out of respect for Hans as nicely as my personal individual boundaries.
You see, 1 of my most significant lessons for 2018 was finding out how to set wholesome boundaries, and my individual relationships are exactly where I draw the line in the sand when sharing my story on the web.
Content material creators, for the record, do not owe their audiences each small detail of their individual lives. And I thank you in advance for respecting my option on the matter.
So, let’s just jump ahead to the portion exactly where I landed in Maui.
You know you have produced a superior option for your self when your life just begins to flow, and that is specifically what occurred from the moment I arrived. Fortunately, my mom had just moved to Maui two months just before me, so I was in a position to remain with her till I identified my personal spot.
I had been scheming up a program for my new enterprise, Kindred Soul Studios, for a handful of months currently by that point. I was, possibly for the incredibly very first time, taking myself seriously as an entrepreneur.
Blogging had been a entertaining experiment and all, but it in no way genuinely felt like a achievement and I’d often struggled to feel of myself as a enterprise owner.
This time, items had been distinctive.
I’d sought out photography mentors and a enterprise mentor and was operating diligently on a enterprise program. I took the time to craft a vision I could be proud of, which, I will admit, is not one thing I ever did when beginning this small weblog right here.
It is funny how motivation finds you when you are performing function you are genuinely passionate about. When you are lastly operating from a spot of objective.
When I woke up on the morning of October 1st, I hit the ground operating. That incredibly similar day, I purchased a automobile (the very first automobile I’ve owned in just about a decade!). I was on Instagram looking for neighborhood photographers to connect with, and setting up shoots with buddies to make my portfolio.
Inside two weeks, I’d identified my dream apartment in Maui’s upcountry: a cozy, largely-furnished studio with white walls, the sweetest landlords, and an impressive view of the West Maui Mountains.
And when I say “my dream apartment,” I imply that in no uncertain terms. I had been visualizing the ideal spot to reside for months at that point, and in my mind’s eye it looked quite substantially just like this 1.
Except, what I got is basically Much better than what I’d hoped for. Manifestation, y’all. It is true.
Initially, I just about identified it tough to think just how conveniently Maui was accepting me I’d heard from just about each Maui neighborhood I’d ever talked to that the island is, er, fairly certain about who she lets remain.
It felt like such an honor to be making a new life right here, substantially much less with (relative) ease.
That is not to say I haven’t faced any challenges in the final 5 months. I imply, I did just finish a connection with a man I loved (and nonetheless adore) incredibly deeply. And I nonetheless to this day uncover myself in the midst of a season of really serious emotional upheaval, with previous traumas resurfacing at a speedy clip, demanding to be felt.
It has been absolutely nothing quick of cathartic and healing, but it leaves me feeling disoriented and rundown extra typically than not.
By means of the marathon approach of assisting my mom downsize her life in Washington in preparation for the move, I discovered SO A great deal about myself. I also RE-discovered a lot about myself, items I had lengthy considering the fact that forgotten.
As each superior American household does, we held onto boxes upon boxes of relics from my childhood years. And in wading via the mess to make a decision what to maintain and what to let go, I got to revisit the sweet and innocent small girl that I’d as soon as been–you know, just before life brought its hammer of destruction down onto that delicate small head with the choppy house-reduce bangs.
I remembered the animal lover that delighted in studying the rainforest, who checked out the similar book on dog breeds from the library week soon after week, and who dreamt of 1 day becoming a marine biologist.
I got to study her poetry, try to remember what subjects she liked and didn’t like in college, and study about her most significant fears (spiders losing people today she loved).
I came to realize how she created her adore for travel, and that Maui had often held a unique spot in her heart (in 1 quick story about going to Maui for Christmas, she named it her favourite spot in the globe and talked about the rush of adrenaline she felt when the plane took off).
And in the approach of becoming reacquainted with small Leah, I understood that the hard emotional function I was performing was specifically the issue that was going to set her cost-free.
The layers of hurt I was shedding every single time I crumpled onto the floor in a heap of sobs had been gradually but certainly revealing that childlike essence, bringing me deeper into the heart and extra closely resembling my incredibly soul.
In hindsight I can clearly see that the knowledge was largely accountable for my potential to even RECOGNIZE what it was my heart wanted (moving to Maui, even if it meant going alone), and to trust it adequate to make the option. A painful option, yes, but the proper 1.
I’m grateful for the time I was in a position to invest in Wenatchee, my birthplace and the spot I linked with so substantially discomfort. It was healing, and offered me with a excellent deal of substantially-required closure. But as quickly as my mom left, the final shred of connection I felt to it vanished with her.
I knew–my heart knew–it was time to move on.
So right here I uncover myself, thousands of miles from my earlier life and what feels like thousands of miles beyond my comfort zone, performing items on the each day that scare the living shit out of me (I want I was exaggerating).
But hey, development is what we are right here for, so I’m not so substantially complaining as stating information.
Largely even though, I’m tending to that sweet small girl inside of me who lastly got her dream of living in her favourite spot on earth, and identified the courage to pursue one thing that genuinely sets her soul on fire.
Hawaii is house for the foreseeable future, and Kindred Soul Studios is my major enterprise. This weblog is not going anyplace, and I’ve got a program for it, rest assured.
I will continue to share the rest of this journey with you as it unfolds, as honestly and vulnerably as often (possibly extra vulnerably than you are made use of to, basically).
I know quite a few of you are possibly nonetheless questioning about the logistics and sensible elements of the move, so that is on my list of subjects to tackle subsequent as I ease back into making content material for this internet site.
For me, the move was relatively simple for my mom, it was a distinctive story. I have small in the way of possessions, whereas she owned a house, cars, and was traveling with pets, amongst other items.
So, to give you a nicely-rounded notion of what moving to Hawaii genuinely appears like, I’ll do my ideal to cover it all. Particularly the blunders we produced, so you can stay clear of generating the similar ones.
If you have particular queries for me about moving to Maui or something else about living life in a tropical paradise, please drop them in the comments and I’ll be positive to address them in future posts.
Till subsequent time, substantially adore and aloha, and thank you for hanging with me via this most current of important life overhauls 😉
You are appreciated extra than you know!